Over You

It's so crazy how you can read something on the Internet and then a song comes on and your eyes swell up with tears. You weren't thinking about anything remotely close to that just seconds ago and now... That's all you can think about.

While browsing through Facebook statuses, dumb YouTube videos, links to people's favorite baked macaroni and cheese recipes, I see a little, red notification pop up that tells me I've been tagged in something.

I click on it. This song plays on the radio as I sit in my truck, letting it warm.

And just like that my mood changes. Seconds ago I was just a robot, doing my daily routine, just getting off of work. My eyes swell and I immediately start thinking back to all the memories I've had and that fateful night. How can something like that effect you so many years later?  I know it's much harder on my friends and family of the boys who died that night, but we were all there, celebrating God knows what. I'm pretty sure it was just one of those random parties we had out at the ranch, with some of our favorite people.

I remember clear as day, Garrett and Mat, relentlessly breaking the crystals in the Aftershock bottle with a screwdriver and passing some to me.

She said it's been 12 years since the accident happened that took away Carlos and Mat. There was a third guy, driving, but I didn't know him well and I feel bad for not remembering his name. Carlos and Mat both were like brothers to me and just moments before the accident my actual, by blood brother was in the truck and it could have been him. Funny how things work out sometimes.

I think all of us that were there that night can and will always remember it like it was yesterday, the memories forever burned in our minds, but you try to move on. Adjust. Adapt. You grow up, learn from your experience and try to not remember what you will be forced to always within you.

I promise, I WILL write a happy post soon, but for today... I just want to remember the guys, the fun times we all had and I want to remember their families. Their friends, fiance's, girlfriends and loved ones. Whether it be months, or years, I know it doesn't get any easier losing someone you care so deeply for.

Whether you know what I'm talking about or you don't, just remember: Those you love today may not be here tomorrow so don't put off telling them what you think they need to hear.

-Sarah